0 – Severely depressed, suicidal and/or homicidal, immediate inpatient treatment necessary, inability to function (in daily activities)
1 – Severely depressed, somewhat suicidal and/or homicidal, monitoring necessary, inpatient treatment likely necessary, inability to function
2 – Severely depressed, passing suicidal and/or homicidal thoughts, monitoring recommended, inpatient treatment optional, great difficulty functioning
3 – Moderately depressed, passing suicidal and/or homicidal thoughts, monitoring optional, some difficulty functioning
4 – Mildly depressed, passing suicidal and/or homicidal thoughts, monitoring optional, low difficulty functioning
5 – Emotionally numb, in a state of existence, no suicidal and/or homicidal ideations, no monitoring necessary, some ability to function, borderline mood (potential for change to 4 or 6)
6 – Mildly happy, content, no suicidal and/or homicidal ideations, little functioning problems
7 – Moderately happy, upbeat, no functioning problems
8 – Moderately happy, optimistic, positive, no functioning problems
9 – Extremely happy, optimistic, cheerful, positive, “in a good mood,” “feel great,” no functioning problems
10 – Extremely happy, potentially manic, active, energetic, euphoric, ability to function may vary
*A plus (+) sign, used only for numbers below 5, indicate that there is no suicidal ideation.
depression introspection 
I’m sorry dear Marissa. I know what it feels like to think your spouse would be better off without you. I also know what it feels like to want to die.
It sounds like you were disassociating if you don’t really remember what happened. Has that happened before?
I will pray for you. I think of you everyday.
love to you,
G
Oh Marissa, I’m sorry this is so hard right now, I am thinking of you, and just know you are not alone in feeling this way. Your husband as well as everyone else in your life is fortunate to have you in it, I know I am.
Please take care,
Stephany
Marissa, Sending you prayers, love, and hugs. If I could, I’d send you a ton of brownies right now. Chocolate does work miracles. 😉
Wish I could give you a hug in person because I think that’s what you need right now. ((((Marissa)))
Marissa, please stay with us. The world is better and more interesting with you in it.
Dear Marissa,
I am praying for you. You are in my thoughts and prayers. Sorry to know of the difficult time you have gone through.
Maybe see your pdoc if necessary, to find out if the medicine is causing you problem.
Do know that God loves you and you are precious to God and your husband, your family and friends, and us too in this blogger world.
Don’t give up. There is hope and help. Hope you feel better soon!
Hugs and prayers,
Nancie
Marissa,
I’m glad you are still with us. Thank you for your honest post.
Peace.