Thank you, everyone, for your well-wishes and outpouring of support. I saw my psych today and he is adding 2-5 mg of Abilify to my medication regimen. He had me choose between Geodon and Abilify. Of course, I am hesitant to do this. Take a look at Philip’s post on Abilify and then take a look at CLPsych’s post about how Abilify performed against placebo. My psych pointed out that I did better on 200 mg of Lamictal but I distinctly remember feeling cognitive impairment on 200. The 150 seemed to work well for a while but I don’t know what’s happening. And to be quite honest, I’m always a little wary of alternative treatments even though I know they have helped so many people. I wonder if they are for me.
More thoughts soon…
depression introspection 
You know as well as anybody that the med game is a crap-shot. Personally, I’ll have to take the doctors advice over the bloggers. All this stuff affects everybody differently.
You sound better and I’m glad.
Take care.
I’d agree with PJ aka Greybeard. You need to listen to the doctors, but at the same time you need to listen to YOURSELF. Not every med is the magic cure-all for depression. I know I tend to go into a fury of over-research when I want to know something NOW, then start to get panicked when it’s not what I think it is.
If you start to feel like it’s not working, talk to your doc. Granted, you’re going to go through what I call the “lab rat” game. But, you need to find something that works. Sending you hugs!!!
Good luck, I’m thinking about you.
You’re going about this the right way, Marissa. You’re getting professional, medical help that includes a meds regimen, but you’re also keeping a critical eye on the realities of pharmaceuticals. In the end, this approach will keep you well. God bless.
Glad you are better, Marissa. Praying for you. Take care.
Good luck with the med adjustment! You’re in my thoughts.